I’ve become impotent. I could have gotten some today. In fact… I kind of did… But my heart wasn’t into it. I don’t know… All I could think about was like… “I got to get over Nick sometime… I guess”… and then… “This isn’t right…”… Yeah… Before.. any other time and I would have jumped at the oportunity for some… Now, it doesn’t even appeal to me.

I remember when I “liked” Kha… I would tell him about how hot i thought other guys are and stuff… and he was telling me about how when I found the person that I really cared for, I wouldn’t even look at other guys… and it would be involuntary…

Haha.. I finally understand what he meant.