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You know, blasting happy music at the top of my speakers and dancing ALWAYS makes me feel better. ^__^
Archive for July, 2000
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I’m taking my senior portraits today!! I should go take a shower.. grr.. too lazy.. TEEHEE! I hope I look pretty in them.. It would suck not to… Everybody usually looks hecka good, you know? It’s like “What if I’m that ONE chick that looks totally gross”… I’m usually photogenic.. but.. I don’t know if I’m up for it today, you know???!!! WAH!! I’m going to wear the red dress and the black dress that they give you.. You know.. the off-the-shoulder one.. We HAVE to wear those.. doesn’t that suck? all good I guess… ^_^* Anyhow! I’m going to go take a shower now so that my hair can dry in time….
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You know what I realized last night? Whenever I talk to people, I take a little piece of them with me… So like.. when I talk to negative people, I become negative myself for a little bit… Or when I talk to really positive and energetic people it makes me want to be like them… (I guess that’s what they mean by Pisces being a Mutable Sign!)… Teeeheee… Yeah… So yeah.. I don’t think I should talk to Kha anymore! It just makes me too negative… He prides himself in being “dark” and “deep”… WTF is that… Whatever.. I prefer to be “light” and “flighty” any time.. Much more fun!! :
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Question: What’s up w/ Niall?
The center of the Celtic Cross (NOT SHOWN) is the card you have chosen to represent yourself.
DAUGHTER OF STONES — Willingness to take responsibility for something greater than oneself. Love, courage and dedication. Inner beauty.
*I always feel kinda conceited picking the representer!! They never have anything negative! Heehee.
The first card you have chosen has been placed on top of your card. This is the card that covers you and it represents the general atmosphere regardings your query.
NINE OF WANDS — Great energy. Arrogance, especially toward those who feel weak. Life’s resiliency.
* ^_^ Uh-oH! Hahaha.. Is that really me?! 
The second card (NOT SHOWN) is placed horizontally across the current two cards. This card represents opposing elements (for good or evil) surrounding your query.
AEON: — Renewal. Optimism in spite of a painful period of change. Change. Spontaneity. All things are possible. Old world seen through new eyes.
*Hmmm… Maybe it means I’m not accepting Niall’s want to help me through this minor heartache.. 
The third card, the card beneath, represents the basis of your query; this is something already a part of the experience.
TWO OF CUPS (reversed) — Quarreling or jealousy. Uncertain future. Lack of commitment.
*Aieeee.. Sounds like my relationship with Kha exactly!
The fourth card, the card behind, represents an element that is just coming to pass or has just pass.
THE SUN: (reversed) — Sun is clouded over. Day-to-day problems, though happiness remains. Loss of confidence. Frustration.
*Heck yeah I lost my confidence! :
The fifth card, the card that crowns, represents a possible aspect of the future. This is not a card of certainty.
NINE OF CUPS (reversed) — Stinginess. Loss.
*This better not happen!
The sixth card, the card before, represents strong aspects of the future surrounding your query.
EIGHT OF CUPS (reversed) — Hidden joy. New happiness. Positive change.
*This means I can be happy again? YAY!!!! ^_____^
With the seventh card begins the view into the deeper aspects of your situation. This card represents your fears, negative feelings or other uncertainties.
JUSTICE: (reversed) — Do not act out of habit. Imbalance. You may be acting unfairly. Trying to avoid an honest evaluation.
*So true so true… Somebody tell me what to do, here!!! :
The eighth card represents your family’s (or close friends’) influence or opinions. Think of this as the close external forces.
SEVEN OF WANDS — Courage and daring – possibly, the courage to retreat. Using one’s power for transformation.
*Hey! I was just talking to Allen and Katie about that last night… about how for a while I’ve been mega-negative and I’m going to try to return to my old self again… TEEHEE! YAY ME
The next to last card represents your hopes and desires. The forces you are currently adding (conscious or otherwise).
MOTHER OF CUPS (reversed) — Someone out of touch with physical realities.
*:Shrug: What’s wrong with that? 
The last card brings together the entire reading. This card represents the final outcome of your query.
EIGHT OF SWORDS — Interference. Gossip. Help or advice.
*Eww, gossip? ^_^ Help or advice sounds good!
Hehehhee… YuP.. There’s me and Niall. YAY
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Anyway.. I feel better now, peeps. 
I talked to Kha’s cousin, Chris… Who’s been helping me out w/ all of this, you know? Yeah.. I feel hecka better now.. SiGh.. I guess I just needed to vent and shiet.. You know how it is!! I guess I’m still pissed.. But I’m allowed to be, right?! ^_^ Yepyep.. That’s it!… I’m going to go now, aiiet?? Okay bye!
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Let me let you know, yeah,
That I’m leavin, babeeee…
Let me let you know, yeah,
That I’m leavin, baybeee….
I don’t know where I’m going,
But I’m going far from here…
Let me let you know babeee…
That I’m leavin, baybe……
One more thing.. before I go…
I hope you feel alone…
Cuz I’m definitely tired
Of waitin for you to come home….
-Pink
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Yeah… I hate guys… Hahah.. okay.. I’m going to stop bitching.. You know what’s going to cure my anger? I’m going to go look at design pages. That’s right. Kim is going to go check out good pages. GO KIM GO KIM GO GO GO GO.. (to the tune of go ninja by vanilla ice.. my idol!.. ok, eminem is.. but close enough? ^_^)
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Okay.. I’m still pissed. I need someone to come online so I can bitch about them about this.. I swear.. Only 4 people I can bitch to right now.. HmMm.. GRR someone sign on!! FAST… I’m losing my patience here!! :
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Oh yeah.. And for anybody out there who actually reads this (which is like.. umm. 2 people? Maybe I’ll advertise more.. nah… But I did well on my physics test! YAY ME! Aren’t you proud of me? Well, I dont know if I did well, but I’m fairly confident about myself! ^_^ At least one good thing happened today.. Well, 2.. I’m completely over him. HMPH.
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Okay… AND yeah.. What a fucking LIAR!! Mr. “Oh yeah, I dont think we should be together because we don’t communicate”… I guess that means “We shouldn’t be together because I want to fuck your closest friend” Or something??? It’s like..wTF.. Can’t you just tell me up front? OBVIOUSLY I would find out sometime or other.. Yeah… Maybe he LIKES looking like a jerk or something. Fucking piece of shit.. GRRR.. Somebody hit me the next time I want to jock a guy.
