Archive for February, 2001
February 6, 2001 at 11:33 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
After a long, Windy day
It seemed almost surreal as I sat in my jacuzzi, looking up at the sky at 11PM. The moon was bright and clear, giving my body a bluish glow… Strange, how moonlight doesn’t shine upon things, rather it gives a certain light that almost fools one into thinking it comes from the inside.
The jacuzzi was warm, and the wind was low… The sky was strangely bright… And I was just sitting there… Everything was so quiet…. And peaceful. I didn’t even turn on the jets, for fear that I would disturb the moment. It’s so rare to find such a quiet moment nowadays.
Ahhh, and how wonderful the hot hot water felt to my poor, strained legs. They definitely have that “I’m toning” type of ache… And though it might give me a measure of satisfaction, the ache is still rather annoying.
In the jacuzzi I can forget it all. Ahh. 
Off to the shower I go, now… Not good to sit here and type, all wet w/ nothing on but a bathrobe HAHA! o_O I’m such a weirdo.
February 6, 2001 at 10:51 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Sigh
I think I’ve reached the “depressed” time of my month. haha. 
Damn the female body. It sucks, it sucks, it sucks. Days like these make me remember why I used to want to be a man. DOWN WITH WOMEN. That, and I used to think I was gay.
February 6, 2001 at 10:28 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
It’s like my MoJo
Only it’s my spunk! What’s wrong with me?? 
College worries shouldn’t be pulling me down like this! I’m not even there yet! Maybe it’s the company I keep. I don’t know. All I know is that I want my spunk back! Grar!! I want to take sticker pictures every weekend!! I want to run around screaming!! I want to come to school wearing nothing but a smile!… Okay, it’s too cold for that, but you know what I mean..
I just want to be different!… I don’t know.. I guess all this year I’ve been trying my hardest to fit in with everybody… My mom, especially wanted me to start fitting in.. But I think at the same time, I’ve tried to suppress myself too much… In the wrong type of way… I mean.. I can be spontaneous and not be a freako, rai?… Right!… Aish. I don’t know what to do.
And the thing is like… I don’t want to THINK about any of the things I could do spontaneously, beause that would be PLANNING to be spontaneous, which … well… defeats the purpose. Narf.. Sigh..
February 6, 2001 at 10:16 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
I’ve lost spontenaity
I used to do things at a whim. Now, I’m just a follower… A planner. -.- I want to do something out there for once! ARGH! I feel closed in!! ;_;
February 6, 2001 at 9:37 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Kids on Love
^_^* Wow! Hahha.. I was reading this on Michelle’s site.. It’s SOOO CUTE!! Hhahhah.. THey totally sound like something that I would have said when I was younger. HahHA.
February 6, 2001 at 9:30 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Sharing computer quirks
aBsoLuT tRt (9:28:56 PM): and then once
aBsoLuT tRt (9:29:38 PM): windows on reboot kept on tryng to install oriental pleasures and “installation components missing”
aBsoLuT tRt (9:29:43 PM): hahah my god that was soo weird
kimtoxication (9:30:10 PM): HahAHahHAa
kimtoxication (9:30:12 PM): o_O
aBsoLuT tRt (9:30:21 PM): i don’t know where that came from
aBsoLuT tRt (9:30:21 PM): haha
kimtoxication (9:30:27 PM): SUuuuRe you don’t
February 6, 2001 at 9:25 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
I found out the single most scary screen in the entire world today. I alway sthought that the scariest screen was the blue screeen of death right before i saved on a long session of adobe photoshop. Au contraire mon cherie… Au contraire… the scariest screen is “error loading litestep.exe. you must reinstall windows”… right after you install a new litestep build.
I was like HOLY FUCK… But then I remembered, it was just windows… so i went into dos… or tried to. I kept pressing f10. -.- That’s what it was on my old computer. But it would work!! So then with help, I finally used f8! ;_;, and suddenly Bammo! safe mode/config screen. Phew!
It was SOOOOOO scary! I thought i was gong to die! It’s like my computer was having a heart attack and I was living vicariously…
February 6, 2001 at 9:20 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
While Blogger is down
Teehee.. I’m just going to write everything in notepad, so this will all probably become one giant chunk of a blog. ^_^* All good.. Hahahah. I’ll be entertained, at least!
Resemblances…
People say my hairlooks like Faye Valentine (Cowboy Bebop) w/out the headband… And that I have a personality like Meryl (Trigun).. Vash is hot, so I’m down w/ that. ^_^* I donno… ahhaa.. When I was younger, i looked like Average Asian Girl. o_O whoa… weird, hUh? Yeah… I don’t know… I wish I looked like somebody famous sometimes… That would be cool, but then.. ^_^* I wouldn’t have my own identity, because everyone would associate the other person with me… That would be the bad part hehe.
Talk about a bad new year!
Check out this guy’s new year…
How’s your 2001 so far?
Mine’s been a helluva (hey, new word for me!) ride so far, sit there and be astonished, just don’t leave your mouth too wide open for too long lest Free Birdie’s gonna ram something in there, he, he:
Around the first week of the year, two days after I arrive from X’mas vacation, my roommate’s found dead. Two bottles of vodka by his side. The guy had an alcohol problem and basically drank himself to death. What’s f*ckin’ freakin’ me out is that he might’ve actually been dead the night I arrived home. He gets drunk a lot and when he does he’s very nasty so we just leave him alone. The night I came home I assumed he was drunk yet again so I left him alone in his room. It was my landlord who discovered his body the next day. Thank goodness I did what I did, otherwise, his corpse would’ve been my greeting for 2001!
Around a couple of days later, within days of each other, I witnessed 2 vehicles engulfed in flames in the streets of Manhattan.
Then there was the time two guys were beating each other up with metal bars while a lady (who I presume they knew) kept screaming. This was during rush hour. Again, Manhattan. Then just last weekend, I saw a rather bizaare scene, two college type Asian guys wrestling a homeless-ish white man on the ground, by the sidewalks. They were just there, struggling with each other. But that’s not the most bizaare part. Afterwards, they just stopped, probably got tired, and went their way, almost as if nothing happened.
Then, my job. Our co. recently laid off a good number of people. The process was swift, the people were out within hours. My manager was almost on the verge of tears when she announced it. Or so I was told. Oddly enough, I was out sick the same day this whole drama unfolded. By the time I came back, a lot of the cubicles were empty.
Want to have a new desktop
This Faye Valentine one just isn’t working out for me… Too bland, too bland!! ^_^* It’s exactly like myold one, only with a different desktop picture. Blech.. Who likes THAT? o_O I’ve had this one for too long. I’m thinking either dark magenta or dark green for this one… Hmmm.. Maybe blue… I haven’t had a “dark” desktop for a while…^_^* I’m a nerd, aren’t I?
February 6, 2001 at 6:56 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
D’oh!
I sent Nick’s b-day present to his house, rai? ‘Cuz he usually goes home on the weekends, but DAYUM! Hahha! THIS weekend he’s not going home~… ;_; NANI?! What if they rot? Aiiee! Maybe I should tell him to tell his parents to eat them.. But maybe his parents won’t want to eat them.. They taste good though!! Wahh! There’s a giant heart shaped one. ^_^* i’m so bad at cooking! But yeah. POOooOo!!! Poo poo poo!
This makes me angry. Hahah. I even sent my letter to his house. -.-
February 5, 2001 at 10:22 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Baked Cookies today
I’m really bad at gauging the size of my cookies… They always come out.. bite sized. ;_;
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