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Archive for June, 2001

Search… I’m obsessed!

Nick Champion blog?… HmMmmm… ^_^* Wow, hecka people are looking for people I know, huh? Nick, Roozbeh, David Tepperman, Niall Stallion… Who’s next?!!?!!?!?!

Last 10 queries :
california biach
embarassing up skirt phot
nick champion blog
E-male calenders
cheerleaders and ticklish
cute tite boobs
“What poetry tries to say
beautiful Taiwanese girls
pinoy blogs
jonny ngo

Ultimate Sweetness!

After hearing that I was sick, Jason went home, heated up some alphabet soup, put it in a thermos and left it at my front door w/ 3 comic books and his chococat stuffed animal. ^_^*

I’m so lucky to have people like this in my life. =]

;_; I’ll miss you

Katie… But I understand… Hell, I don’t know how I keep it up myself. ^_^; I guess I’m just easily narcissistic and self centered like that. =D WOOOOOOOO. That, and I don’t truly believe anybody but you and me actually read it on a regular basis.

That won’t change the fact that I’ll miss you, though. :T Who will inspire me?

P.S. He’s not worth missing.

What I want…

Michelle, you’re lucky! To know what you want. Or to be more sure of it than before. Me, I’m in limbo as ever. I never really know what I’m looking for, what I’m chasing. Maybe it’s just some childhood fancy, my desire to see the blacks and whites of life.

My main souce of troubles comes from my terrible insecurities, I think. I mean, most of the time I try to put on a face — you know, that I’m tough, and that the things people say don’t really touch me. And the fact is. Things do touch me. And I hate it. I hate the fact that I actually care when people I don’t even know or care about make comments about me that I myself know are not true. I hate that I care when someone tells me the truth. That hurts the most I guess.

Sigh. Actually. I’m back at that insecure time of month again, too. Fuck female hormones.

Tired and sick.

I wonder why I’m always sick. I mean, there’s got to be some logical reason, right? I really don’t understand it. Other people stay out all night every night and they feel fine the next day. W h y me??? Why am I always the one that gets sick?!! BOOO. :( i guess i just have to take better care of myself.

More search queries. These fascinate me.

Lately the search queries have been updating more than ever!! I think it’s because it’s finally summer time and people have extra time on their hands. HAHA! Even Roozbeh. Why he would EVER look for himself, i have no idea. Hee hee.

“Cute Pinoys” That sounds like something I would type in.

Last 10 queries :
Are you ticklish?
uci roozbeh
14 year old girl + rape +
love moan wav
woo hyuk +pictures
faye valentine
cute pinoys
pictures of cute cell pho
“shaved her head”picture
short girl

Fickle…

What I need is some closure. I’ve been chasing after him for so long, that I don’t know what it is to like somebody else. I miss him so much… And yet… I’ve found someone else… But it’s not the same… I was thinking about it the other day and I really sincerely believed that I could get over him for this someone else. . . but I can’t.

Evidence? Today. I looked outside and realized it was summer. Suddenly a torrent of summer images washed over me like a giant wave and I found myself drowning in memories of the summer and him. God I miss him.

Summer. The time I’ve been waiting for all year. The time that I said to myself I would let my feelings go. The time when no one is busy, minds are idle, and the time I truly believed could make things change between the two of us.

Not as if, he ever had any real feelings for me I suppose. Not in that way, anyhow. I’ve probably been fooling myself all this time. And yet, I can’t really say I ever expected more. I wouldn’t be surprised if he had absolutely no feelings for me.

Perhaps that’s just the protective cover I put over myself.

But now that I’ve met this someone else things are so different. It’s someone who can actually be here for me. Someone who cares for me… More care than I actually know what to do with… It’s such a comforting, yet scary feeling. No one’s ever given me this ‘taken care of’ feeling before.

But is it right… This is summer… The time that I have been waiting for all year. And suddenly someone else comes and my plans change? What a fickle person am I to suddenly give up on my plans simply because I’ve been waiting for too long.

Oh, get out of my throat you stupid knot… Now’s not the time to get all tied up. Sigh.

What I need is some closure.

What the hell is AISH?

Last 10 queries :
jeep girl
aish pussy
silly wavs
sisqo dur dragon pics
cute tite boobs
the ticklish bitch #9
revealing skirt photos
“very cute girl”
sayonara “you are the gir
ticklish

I always get “aish” in my queries.. But for me, that’s just a sound I make similar to “Aiyah!” :T

Nothing to complain about…

I haven’t anything to complain about the last few days, hence the lack of posting. :) Nothing especially delightful, either. Oh well. I’m excited — I’m going to go see Rent in San Fransisco today with my friend Adrian! For free! It’s great.

Welps. Only one more day left until the senior year ends. Aish. It doesn’t feel like I’m ending something. Maybe I won’t feel that way until I graduate. Maybe I’ll never feel that way.

Online Pet Peeves

Blogs that even when maximized have 150 pixel wide text space. It doesn’t make you seem like you have more text, it just makes you seem like you have less important things to say. =T

People with grammar worse than my own. It’s the worst when they say ‘grammer’. What are you, Canadian? Only a Canadian could find an alternative spelling that dumb. Fucking colours. HAHA (j/p, I love canadians.)

Those blogs that have like 1 line posts every single time w/ no explainations. BLECH.

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