College… :)

September 17, 2001 at 7:35 am · Filed under Rigamarole

Wow. 7:30 AM. Damn, I’m pretty goddamn tired. Teehee! Yesterday was really interesting — filled with shaking millions of hands and saying ‘hi’ to tons of people. At one point I got really hyper and started bouncing off the walls.

Some people just don’t have an appreciation for laffytaffy the way I do.

Anyhow, damn. My head is totally unclear right now. =} Lack of sleep has caused my gears to run even slower than usual if that’s even possible. My new computer is pretty goddam fast.

I miss my mommy!

But at the same time, it’s nice to know that she’s not going to be nagging me all the time. She kept yelling at me when we were here, as if after 18 years of upbringing she was going to change me [if she hadn’t already moulded me] in the last hour. =}

Dude. I feel sick!!

P.S. My roommate is cooL!

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=] Points of view

September 14, 2001 at 8:40 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Yet another person who speaks out more eloquently than I ever could.

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I can’t say enough about prejudice

September 14, 2001 at 8:25 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

and how much it hurts me… But here is another person who expressed herself better than I could have:

I have to say this and I am going to say it as nice as I possibly can. Some of my friends have put me on to a few sites where people are hatin’ on Arabs. That shit is so ridiculous. Just by me living in NYC alone, I am exposed to such a diversity of people here. So many nationalities. Some of these Arabs were actually born here. Been here longer than your ass. They have every right to be here and live just like any other American. Don’t hate on them or infringe on their innocence because of the wicked deeds that people of their particular nationality did. I saw an interview today on “NBC” news where they were supposed to be interviewing 2 Arab Americans but only one was able to make it cause the other one was called to his military duty. That is just an example. Ya’ll are hatin’ on Arabs yet and still they are still willing to fight for this country. Willing to fight your fuckin’ battles! So don’t be hating on the Arab nationality. Hate the terrorists, people affiliated with them and those who share their sadistic views. By expressing hate on innocent Arabs you make yourself look real ignorant and stupid. And also totally uneducated.

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Things that bother me.

September 14, 2001 at 11:14 am · Filed under Rigamarole

The attack on the WTC brought many people together… Brought out the beautiful side of human nature — the usually hidden instinct to help one another as a species. I’ve been watching the news and being touched by all the firefighters, all the policement working hard and risking their lives that they might save others. Seen the pictures of people lining up to give blood all the funds that have been put up to help the people affected by the tragedy.

However, through the midst of the sudden beauty and shine of humanity, I’m beginning to also witness the worst, most terrifying traits of human nature. Apathy, prejudice, and maliciousness.

Apathy… as i’ve seen here and here disturbs me to the very core. People who simply don’t care — people who are more worried about the mall closing because of the terrorist attacks than the fact that our nation has been brutally targeted and that thousands of people died.

I’m ashamed to be a part of a society in which there exist people who feel that way.

Prejudice… as I’ve seen satired here and experienced here, I’ve also seen first hand in my own family and with my friends. As if the workings of a few extremists can tell us how all muslims feel. It’s as if saying the KKK represents what all white Christians believe.

It hurts to see people turning against one another. When will people close their eyes to hate?

Malicious thoughts and acts towards others. On both sides because of this prejudice there maybe more bloodshed. More deaths… And to what end? It all seems so pointless.

“An eye for an eye just makes the world go blind,” the words of Mahatma Gandhi.

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A bit of happiness

September 13, 2001 at 6:25 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

This made my day. A Hello Kitty Wedding.

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We’re all connected

September 13, 2001 at 5:50 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

So many people working in the WTC and Pentagon and those people in the planes. How many of them had a page? a blog? How many spilled their souls to us on the Internet… never to be found? Where are they now? Lost in cyberspace no doubt.

Maybe when I find the strength, I’ll find them and read them all. They’re there for a reason, right?

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Vertigo

September 13, 2001 at 12:21 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

I just realized my folly in creating a website that features a building from the ground up. I get really bad vertigo whenever i look up at skyscrapers or up at flagpoles… Anything super tall in general. After staring at my page for a while… I’m beginning to feel vertigo just looking at it.

;_;* I’m terrible!

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weak

September 13, 2001 at 4:32 am · Filed under Rigamarole

I’m such a weakling. Suddenly I find myself unable to sleep. Every time I close my eyes the vision of people jumping from buildings… terrified Americans rushing the streets… and the image of crushed human beings underneath 60 feet of rubble plays in my mind as if my eyelids are some kind of grotesque moviescreen.

It really is like a movie… you know. I never realized how realistic those special effects were until now. Until I realized how desensitized I was already to the pictures being displayed on my screen. Until I realized… That’s not just a cardboard box with a makeshift plane cutting through it. That’s a 747 cutting through the fucking WTC.

The TV is beginning to play other things than the news. I have no more excuse to think of the things that have been happening… But I can’t. I don’t think I can rest easily until every thing that can be found out is found out… And those that should be punished are punished.

For now… I just want to be able to go to sleep without imagining the cries of those poor people in wheelchairs at the stairway hoping somebody — anybody — will help them down the stairs.

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September 13, 2001 at 3:11 am · Filed under Rigamarole

Bagism: Albums & Singles: Lyrics: Imagine

Imagine
John Lennon

Imagine there’s no heaven
It’s easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today…

Imagine there’s no countries
It isn’t hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace…

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world…

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will live as one

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layout

September 13, 2001 at 2:40 am · Filed under Rigamarole

I guess it’s not too hard to explain my current layout. I never made an aaliyah tribute… so bare with me on this one. I just needed somewhere to vent out my anger… and what better place thatn adobe photoshop and notepad, right? yeah. sigh. I’m really not trying to beat this into the ground. It’s just my mode of expression.

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