She knew she was falling when their eyes touched but she turned away anyway. She knew it was hopeless to run when they kissed but she pushed him away anyway. She held him tight with desperate tears and let go even though she couldn’t tear her arms away.
I’ve been at the library for the past two hours or so. It’s funny how you think you’re productive when you’re studying at home… But you’re so not. For me it feels like the only time that I can truly buckle down and force myself to concentrate and study is when I pull myself out of my room and drag myself to the library all the way across campus. Maybe it’s because my computer isn’t here (and when I study, I’m nowhere near any computers)… Or maybe it’s seeing all the other people studying which fires my competitive side to working hard.
All I know is, it’s something that seems to work for me.
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As I type here, though, a thought came to mind. I vaguely remember thinking how weird it would be to be able to connect to the world wide web from any place I wanted, and connecting at unbelievable speed. I remember seeing the news and the visions of computers being used in classrooms, public places, etc. It seemed like such a dream… but now here I am at the library, with a fast connection, posting my thoughts for all to see.
Strange, isn’t it? Like the thought of cell phones that are smaller than your head and lighter than a brick.
I’m going to be leaving the state for a few days. It’ll be nice, I think, a time to relax, spend time with john, meet up with my 702 buddies and get away from here. It feels like forever since I’ve been somewhere besides San Jose or Irvine.
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Additionally, I posted this in response to paul‘s post about lying.
It’s true that everybody does make a decision when they decide to lie. The second before you open your mouth to say something, a truth or a lie, there’s always that thought ‘should i say this?’ and ‘why am i saying this?’.
Admittedly, lying to manipulate and hurt others is bad. However, using the truth to manipulate people and hurt others is almost as bad… and in my personal opinion, worse than using a lie in order to try to keep things together, keep things from falling apart.
Both lies and truths can be used in malicious ways depending on how you use them. The same goes for using them for good ways.
Have been seeing the drama going on between aiwei.net and mywonderful.net concerning the subject of ripping off other people’s sites.
The story is that aiwei.net had a site design and then mywonderful.net created a similar design without asking permission, but giving credit for the idea.
jesus said something about it before… It doesn’t really matter because nothing here was completely copied and nothing here was completely original in the first place. The main concern at this situation here was that A. The site in question was side scrolling. B. The site in question contained female models/singers. C. The site in question had iframes. — These were the three main things that pretty much made the sites very similar to each other.
aiwei.net, although I feel sorry that she had to go to the hospital from the stress of trying to think up an original layout, I think should chill. First of all, the two sites don’t even have the same general feeling between the two, and truthfully, neither site looks that original to me.
I’ve been making webpages for five years, throughout these five years, I’ve seen countless sites that use models, side scrolling and iframes. yes, I’ve even seen them used together. The first time i saw this was three years ago when the ever-so-popular nick@asianx.net did it [the site is down now… too old]. My point is, though, that aiwei.net really wasn’t the first one to do it — hell, I saw it done three years before her idea existed.
So why get so pissed?
It’s like getting mad at someone for having a layout that has navigation on the left because your navigation was also on the left. o_O
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Admittedly, I became very very angry when a girl decided to rip off my site layout, so this may seem hypocritical to some people. However there’s a difference (I think) from ripping off like this:
 my site |
 their site |
 aiwei.net |
 mywonderful.net |
Personally, I don’t think that the two sites are similar enough to get mad about copyright laws over. I think that mywonderful.net was doing aiwei.net a service by crediting her in the first place when she didn’t really need to because the site wasn’t really as copied as aiwei.net made it out to be. I also think that aiwei.net should calm down. If her site were truly original, I might say something different… but it’s not. I’ve seen it done a million times before it feels like… And as you can see from MY personal experience, the copycatting/plagiarism can go much worse than what happened to her.. So I really can’t feel sorry for aiwei.net.
Inspiration is not plagiarism. If similar form was considered plagiarism then every table-based site that has a top image and words down the center of it and a right-hand-side navigational section that came before me is being plagiarized. Yeah… Roiiiite.
I’m weirded out by the fact that I can be happy. I’m weirded out by the fact that I can be okay, not sad, not obsessed with my impending insanity — or death. It freaks me out that I feel like I’m possibly okay. That I might become my old self again. That I might be happy again.
Bleh. 
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