Thursday October 6, 2005 at 06:07 pm

October 7, 2005 at 1:07 am · Filed under Rigamarole

I wish I was smart enough

to act stupid from the beginning.

There are so many bimbos out there, girls that act like total retards
that pretend they don’t have anything better in their minds than
looking good and finding a rich husband, that it would really shock me
if there weren’t some super geniuses hidden underneath those perfectly
made-up, manicured, dyed, expensive veneers.

Sometimes I wonder why I didn’t stay stupid.

I actually played the stupid-idiot-blonde-asian-stereotype for a
while. I was in 6th grade and my parents had just gotten
divorced. I hated school because I never really fit in, and I
hated home because there was nothing but sadness and anger there.
All I did when I got home was take as many sleeping pills and tylenols
and advils as I could [at one point, I was taking about 8 pills a day
— by that time I was in 8th grade haha] and fall asleep.

Because I was in a constant stupor, I was able to convince my mom
and my brother that I was an absolute dolt. A bunch of drama
happened. Long story short -> I ran away from home
in 8th grade and put in a mental for a couple days after that.

And for some reason after I came back, I stopped acting stupid.

It was probably the worst mistake of my life. Once people started to realize that I wasn’t an idiot, they started to have expectations for me. Teachers
started giving me extra homework, my parents pushed me harder to do
well in school, I started thinking that I would go somewhere in life.

If I had kept up my dumb act, expectations would be lower.

I could have been able to concentrate my skills on things that
require little responsibility, like
myself, the way I look, what I wear each day, and whether or not my
hair and nails match the type of clothes I’m wearing…. And no one
would question why I spent my time that way because I’d be a ‘typical’
air-headed-girl type.

There are days when I want to drown myself in empty-headedness and plunge into the darkness of shallow thinking. Then maybe living wouldn’t be such a difficult task. Then maybe I wouldn’t be so tired all the time.

Then maybe I wouldn’t feel so insecure when I stand next to those perfectly manicured girls.

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I forgot

October 6, 2005 at 11:20 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

I forgot that this blog is supposed to log my day to day. I’ve never really been good about writing about my every day life. Not even in my journals. It’s always about my dumbfuckingmothercuntfuckpoopassing ideas. So, without furthur ado, I guess I shall write about my day.

Woke up and looked at the clock. Realized it was 7 AM and screamed. Was supposed to drive Lan to John Wayne at 6 AM. His flight was scheduled for 6:45. Screamed, freaked out, woke him up, and promptly fell back asleep.

Took Lan to airport at 10AM.

Oh, incidentally, he’s an uncle now! YAY. That’s why he went to Arizona.

Went to work. Uneventful. Went home. Drank a beer. Talked to roommates. Drank a beer. Watched Love Hina [anime]. Checked my blog.

The end.

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Advice from the Ignorant

October 6, 2005 at 11:06 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

I find it weird that a lot of guys ask for my advice. I think it’s because I’m a girl that thinks mostly along the same line as the guys.

I actually was thinking about this the other day along a different line: something like, why are do drama-causing bitches always cause drama? it’s because they ask for advice from other drama-causing bitches!

Do you instinctively seek out people that you know will agree with you or will have opinions that you agree with even though they may not be the right ones?

Interesting, and warrants more thought.

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Thursday October 6, 2005 at 11:10 am

October 6, 2005 at 6:10 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Hi, my name is Kim and I have a weird fetish
I sign up for everything under the sun.

No, really. I do. Check out this long ass list (sorted somewhat by sign up date):
*note, some of these you need accounts to view profile

Accounts I’ve had that aren’t around or I’m not on anymore:

What’s
funny is, these are only the ones that I’ve been semi-active in.
I know I’ve signed up for tons of things that I never even went back to
the page for. I’m such a freak! I just sign up for shit ALL
THE TIME! It’s like some kind of obsessive compulsive bullshit I
have that I must have an account on everything.

With
all that said… Now that I’ve come out of the closet, won’t you be my
friendster, myspacester, facebookster, okcupidster, findapixter?

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Thursday October 6, 2005 at 09:09 am

October 6, 2005 at 4:09 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Hi, my name is Kim and I have a weird fetish
I sign up for everything under the sun.

No, really. I do. Check out this long ass list (sorted somewhat by sign up date):
*note, some of these you need accounts to view profile

Accounts I’ve had that aren’t around or I’m not on anymore:

What’s
funny is, these are only the ones that I’ve been semi-active in.
I know I’ve signed up for tons of things that I never even went back to
the page for. I’m such a freak! I just sign up for shit ALL
THE TIME! It’s like some kind of obsessive compulsive bullshit I
have that I must have an account on everything.

With
all that said… Now that I’ve come out of the closet, won’t you be my
friendster, myspacester, facebookster, okcupidster, findapixter?

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Thursday October 6, 2005 at 09:07 pm

October 6, 2005 at 4:07 am · Filed under Rigamarole

Euphoria after taking shit
sorority girls are same as regular girls with more money spent on beauty
legend of xanga revisited
final fantasy X anga?

Why gay guys make great friends

Why do people delete hate comments?

peace one day. http://www.peaceoneday.org/page/homeindex

In what ways are you mediocre? Why is it hard to admit you’re mediocre? –My stint in modeling. ^^

54.48
122.00

Shi the comic.
http://www.perfume.com/alfred-sung/shi-1010879.html
Shi the perfume

Why I don’t write about my daily life — how john taught me that listening to what people do every day is boring.

Sorry, mum! I’ll never be a trophy wife.

I’m overwhelmingly male! (Gender Genie)

Mental illness IS an illness

You don’t have to use big words to be smart. It’s the ideas that are important.

halloween costume

walmart

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I always knew I was a genius.

October 5, 2005 at 9:46 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

English Genius

You scored 100% Beginner, 100% Intermediate, 100% Advanced, and 80% Expert!

You did so extremely well, even I can’t find a word to describe your excellence! You have the uncommon intelligence necessary to understand things that most people don’t. You have an extensive vocabulary, and you’re not afraid to use it properly! Way to go!

Thank you so much for taking my test. I hope you enjoyed it!

For the complete Answer Key, visit my blog: http://shortredhead78.blogspot.com

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Fucking Dragonflies

October 5, 2005 at 9:23 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Today I was in the car and I totally almost got into and accident.

The reason? A DRAGONFLY. Fucking crazy ass bastard dragonfly flew into my car at the stop light on Campus and University and was in the car trying to get out of my hatchback window THE ENTIRE TIME THE CAR WAS MOVING. What a fucking dumb shit. And then when I got off the freeway, the stupid thing came close to me and it was so freakin ugly with it’s little stinger tail >_

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Wednesday October 5, 2005 at 11:06 am

October 5, 2005 at 6:06 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

I never say “LOL”

But I do say, “haha, heehee, heh heh”

Chris Choi
wrote yesterday about how much a farce saying “lol” is when you’re not
actually laughing out loud. Ironically, the other night I was
thinking the exact same thing. In fact, here’s how the epic story
went:

Surely, a more epic story was never told.

So this lead me to wonder– “Why am I this way? I say WTF, BRB and TTYL and several other Internet acronyms.”

And then epiphany hit me. I ONLY write acronyms of things that I
would actually say in real life. For example, when I leave a room
to take a shit, I say “Be right back!”, when I hang up on the phone
with someone, I say “Talk to you later!”. For the cases of
‘BRB’ and ‘WTF’, sometimes I just say the straight acronym in real life.

However, whenever someone says something funny, I NEVER say “OH MY GOD
LAUGHING OUT LOUD!!” I just laugh out loud. What’s really ironic
is that I really do make the “hehe” and “haha” noises when I’m talking
to people.

Other Internet slang that I would NEVER say because I never say it in
real life: IMHO [yeah, as if I’m humble], LMAO, ROFL, ROFLMAO, TTFN,
CPU [for ‘computer’, hello, a cpu is something totally different,
people!].

Which Internet acronyms, abbreviations and colloquialisms do you use? [Look ma, I’m semi-alliterate!]

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Wednesday October 5, 2005 at 07:18 am

October 5, 2005 at 2:18 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

I never say “LOL”
But I do say, “haha, heehee, heh heh”

Chris Choi
wrote yesterday about how much a farce saying “lol” is when you’re not
actually laughing out loud. Ironically, the other night I was
thinking the exact same thing. In fact, here’s how the epic story
went:

Surely, a more epic story was never told.

So this lead me to wonder– “Why am I this way? I say WTF, BRB and TTYL and several other Internet acronyms.”

And then epiphany hit me. I ONLY write acronyms of things that I
would actually say in real life. For example, when I leave a room
to take a shit, I say “Be right back!”, when I hang up on the phone
with someone, I say “Talk to you later!”. For the cases of
‘BRB’ and ‘WTF’, sometimes I just say the straight acronym in real life.

However, whenever someone says something funny, I NEVER say “OH MY GOD
LAUGHING OUT LOUD!!” I just laugh out loud. What’s really ironic
is that I really do make the “hehe” and “haha” noises when I’m talking
to people.

Other Internet slang that I would NEVER say because I never say it in
real life: IMHO [yeah, as if I’m humble], LMAO, ROFL, ROFLMAO, TTFN,
CPU [for ‘computer’, hello, a cpu is something totally different,
people!].

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