Sigh

I find it troublesome to talk about my feelings out loud. I really want to talk about things to somebody right now… But I guess I don’t have anybody to talk to. Except for my mom. But she’s so easily excitable that I can’t really spill all to her, you know… Hahaha. I guess it’s time for me to meet new people so I can spill my heart out to them without being afraid that they’ll run away from me. Or… Even if they do it doesn’t matter because they’ve served their purpose. I have this horrible fear of talking to my friends because I’m afraid if I say something wrong then they’ll turn away from me. I guess that defeats the purpose of having a friend… But yeah. =T Thats the way it is. Damn. Why is it so damn hard to be close to people?