Okay yeah.. Wow.. I talked to Nick for a really long time today… I’m always tempted to ask him where I stand with him seroiusly… Just so I know , you know? But… In some ways I enjoy him the way he is… Like a dream as Chris put it so eloquently. Somehow, though… I don’t know.. It’s like.. . I would ask him… But after I ask him then it would never be the same? So I stay in limbo… Not doing anything… Heh… Perhaps if he really comes through with coming to see me… things will be different.. I will actually understand how he feels when I can look him in the face. Maybe not. Heh… Guys confuse me. So do girls.