I came back from SoCal last night. I had a really good time… I got to spend time with my brother, which is always good, and see Nick.

Seeing Nick after so long was kind of strange… There wasn’t really a gameplan, persay, so we kinda just played the thing by ear. I think one of my favorite parts was standing on the pier and looking out into the ocean. The sunlight hurt my eyes… But it was just so nice, having him there next to me..

We went to Hooters to eat. Haha. It totally reminded me of my first time at Hooters in Florida… That was only two weeks before I met him for the first time… Mmm.. The workings of a human mind.

At one point I felt really weak and dizzy… I don’t know why. The dizziness was pretty sucky though… At first I was just really hot, so I took off my shirt.. But then I still had some dizzy spells occasionally… We ended up just sitting down and talking for a little while.

It was hard to tell, whether or not he was enjoying himself… For me it was enough to to just see him, just to talk to him… I think I would have enjoyed it immensely if we just found a comfortable place to sit and talk… Damn, too bad there weren’t any.

I found myself wanting to say things, and then not saying them. Sometimes I thought I had said them… But I guess I was just spacing out… He would ask me what I was thinking about, and then I would realize I had gone quiet. I didn’t really mean to… At times it just felt like my mind was going in two directions, my personal thought versus what I said… hn.