Idiotic

I often find myself angry at myself for caring. Why should I care, when it doesn’t really benefit me? I get angry at myself because he isn’t really that special, or has any special trait that makes him different from the world… yet to me, he could be the world. I find myself angry because it’s something I can’t reason, something I can’t put my fingers on. I would try to draw it, or recreate it visually, but i would just cheapen the image. It pisses me off. Argh. I think Im just in that time of month where I don’t like anybody. Hah. Argh.