On Friendship

Humans are so fake… In this respect… I find myself continually trying to renew old alliances that I knew have forever fizzled. But then, like a horse with blinds on, I push on and I push on, trying and trying… I should stop, but I know not how. I am not a civil creature by nature, but perhaps I enjoy sadistically pushing myself in these directions. Aish. I do not know. I understand myself less than I understand quantum physics. And boy, do I not understand that.