“I’m mediocre.”
Or average. Or normal.
No
matter how you say it, it’s hard to admit. Most of the people in this
world fall into a certain range. Average looks, average smarts,
average height, average build. In fact, unless you’re
within the top 12.5% or bottom 12.5% of the curve in something, I’d
consider you in the “average” range.
… But you rarely see
anyone admitting that nowadays. For example, when you go into an
interview, you’re not the average joe — you’re better, you’re
superior, you’re even spectacular. –In reality, you’re maybe
decent. Better than most but not in the top percent.
I know I don’t like to be mediocre..
It’s the same for me.
I
like to think that I’m smart — I even considered joining Mensa for a
while. Until I realized that if I joined that society I’d only be
of average intelligence among those peers. That’s when I thought
— who wants to put up with a bunch of stuck-up intellectuals anyway?
But
I didn’t join mostly because once I joined, I’d only be mediocre.
I wouldn’t be at the top. I don’t like to admit that there
are tons of people out there that are more intelligent than
me. Of course I know they exist, I just don’t want to know
about it.
I like to think that I’m above-average in looks — I even had a short [VERY EMBARRASSING :)] stint with modeling [TWO,
in fact]. Deep down I know, though, that I’m not in the top
ranks… I’m pretty confident I’m not in the bottom ranks… But, as I
won’t wow you with my looks, I’m definitely mediocre.
So what do
I do? I delve myself into a land that is filled with other souls more
mediocre than mine and try to stand out in any way I can.
In the end, I need to feel superior.
How it works in society
That’s probably why blogs are so popular. I mean, with whatever
category in which you think you’re above average at you can show it
off. Hot bod? Pictures. Sexy? Pictures. Intelligent?
Write your heart out about it. Posture about how intelligent you
are. Use big words. woooo.
And people who have less than you in whatever you decide to show off
about will follow you around because they acknowlege that you are
better than them.
Regardless, in the end it doesn’t matter… Even if you are better than some or even most, you’re still likely to fall into the mediocre range.
It hurts to say it!… but it’s true.
I’m mediocre…. And more likely than not, so are you!
Where is it hardest for you to admit your mediocrity? Looks? Intelligence? Physique?
Maybe not even that. I’m the minority: the lower end… yes! 
