August 15, 2008 at 4:12 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Call me paranoid, but whenever I start a new job at a company that’s not a web development company, I feel like I have to work extra hard to prove myself as competent in my line of work. While I know that there is that feeling whenever one starts a job, I definitely feel more pressure in a company where there is no one but me who has expertise in my field (which is strange, because shoudln’t it be harder at a company where everyone does the same thing as me?). It’s hard working without peers… but is this the only reason for my sense of unease?
There’s one thing that always nags me at these companys in which all the more skill-involved jobs are done by men and the only jobs held by women are accounting assistants, HR, secretaries, and other phone picker-uppers and paper shufflers:
Would I have to work this hard for respect if I was a guy with the same amount of experience?
I’ll never know for sure… but I have a sneaking suspicion that I wouldn’t like the real answer.
August 7, 2008 at 8:41 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Living in the suburbs of Vegas is surprisingly similar to living in the suburbs of any other big city, except everything around here just seems to be open a few hours later . Maybe I’m just used to Irvine’s 8pm shutdown time.
So, I was feeling pretty at home the other day grocery shopping at Vons. I browsed the titles at the top of the aisles to plot my course: cereal, sugar, canned foods, paper plates and napkins, slot machines…. wait. rewind. WHAT? slot machines???
I couldn’t believe my eyes, so I went there to take a look. Yep. There they were, all in a pretty little row. And there were actually people sitting at them, too!
Who plays slots at Vons??? The hecks? That totally didn’t make any sense to me at all.
Other than that, everything’s been pretty normal. The second I scrounge up enough money I want to go to a buffet, though!!!
August 7, 2008 at 3:09 am · Filed under Rigamarole
Man, I’m broke. I haven’t been this broke since I was still in college and my family decided to disown me.
I started doing work for my new company a couple weeks before we moved here, fully expecting to receive a check from them as soon as I arrived. Because of various miscommunication issues, a week later, my money still hasn’t come in, so things are getting pretty tight around here.
Hopefully this will help me diet for the wedding.
To make matters worse, there are problems with Brent’s school loans, so they’re not coming in until later this month… too bad by then I’ll already have my checks so it won’t really matter as much.
I forgot what it felt like to be completely broke. I mean there have been times in the past couple years where I had to transfer money from my savings to my checking because I miscalculated here or there, but this is pretty bad.
August 5, 2008 at 6:53 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Since I’ve been coming into contact with a lot of people from my past and losing contact (or at least proximity) with a lot of people from my present, I’ve been thinking a lot about friendship.
I’ve discovered that while there is a fairly clear line between a person who is a friend and an acquaintance, within the realm of friendship there are also many different levels. The term “friend” seems too all-encompassing, and even the term “best friend” or “close friend” doesn’t really make that much of difference.
What surprises me the most is that there are some friendships where a year or more can pass, yet once we reconnect, it is the same as always. While there are others where a few months is enough to turn that person into a stranger. This is true regardless of how much time I’ve spent with the person overall. There’s a certain closeness that I share with certain people that never seems to break no matter the distance (even the ukraine or the caribbean) or the time apart.
And I have to say, while it’s super depressing when I realize that people I thought were my friends have become strangers, I very much cherish those moments when I realize I’ve found that type of friend in which closeness is a feeling and not a length of time, a forced effort or distance.
August 4, 2008 at 1:41 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
So, I’ve been in vegas for a couple days now… I start my new job today, and Brent already left earlier today for his first day of med school! I’m too lazy to take pictures, so here’s one brent took of our apartment. Can you believe this is about the same price as the room I had in cali??
Anyone in the west covina area wanting cheap stuff like $1.00 for clothes and a $20 27 inch tv that works perfectly among tons of other stuff, email me at wikipatterns@gmail.com
So… since the last entry was posted, Brent received his acceptance into med school and I got a new job. In Vegas.
I’m moving to Vegas this Saturday. We start work and school on Monday.
It seems weird to me that I haven’t written anything about my huge life changes. Yet, as I sit here, its hard for me to think of things to write about.
The stress of an out of state move, a looming wedding and no money to my name is starting to get to me. I’m freaking out about all the things that need to be done, or have to be planned, or aren’t going to get done, or might not be done right.
I thought I would be spared from bridezilla mode… but I guess no one’s immune.
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To vote in support of the California Supreme Court’s decision on same-sex marriage:
1. call 1-916-445-2841 2. press 1, 5, 1, 1
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To email go to http://gov.ca.gov/interact,
hit email tab and select Supreme Court decision on Same Sex Marriage.
On the next screen you must click PRO. It’s a little confusing since
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