i don’t know what it is, but now two months after our breakup, though things haven’t been sour or anything like that, reading entries like this on jason’s site make me feel as if we live in completely different worlds.

i remember back in the day when we would debate about things, and our views would be so different. it seems like yesterday when we were arguing about whether or not religion is necessary in a society. — he believed that people who follow religion are weak and that if religion were completely removed from our society, our lives would continue the same way. — i believe that though religion isn’t right for all, some can find strength in it and that because almost all societies are founded on religion [even ours] society would be completely different, and even chaotic without religion.

we’re so different. our goals are different, the way we see things are different… yet we both have one thing in common, at one point we cared for one another.

people always say that caring for one another is enough. even if being together means compromising your ideals. even if being together means letting your life go to shambles just because you’re in love. look at the story of Romeo and Juliet, they couldn’t be together so they whacked themselves. because it was enough for them to be in love with each other. or my ex-boyfriend the situation with his ex girlfriend [refer to link above], he claims he stopped getting good grades and stopped caring about success because he loved her.

i don’t think that it’s enough. even if you care for somebody there’s a point of destruction where you have to realize that even though you care for a person you’re ruining your life because of them. i think that if the other person truly cares about you they wouldn’t let you go down the hole like that. if the other person truly cares about you they’d make sure you succeeded.

well maybe that’s just me. maybe that’s just the way i feel when i care about somebody. i guess for some, just loving each other and being with each other all the time and being together and being in love is enough.

what was my point? oh yeah. we’re so different. it’s like we live in different worlds. i can’t even begin to talk about how removed i feel from him right now.