Wednesday April 12, 2006 at 12:38 pm

April 12, 2006 at 7:38 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

My bras were stolen!
WTF mate?!

DEAR FUCKING ASSHOLE IN THE PUBLIC LAUNDRY ROOM,

To my great surprise as I sorted through my laundry after washing it, I
realized I HAD NO BRAS LEFT [I’m also missing 2 dresses, but that’s
inconsequential compared to the bras].

Dude! I honestly spend less than 10 dollars on every article of clothing I own — EXCEPT for bras. Did you HAVE to take the bras you fucking asshole?

I’m really very angry. I’m a fucking a-cup and I need serious push-up
and help to make it look like I have some titties.

I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN WEARING MY A-CUP BRAS! YOU FUCKING OWE ME ABOUT $200!

Not only were 4-5 of my bras stolen, but also my miracle bra collection swimsuit top which costs like $50 bucks… making it around 200-250 dollars in bras total. [My bras range from 25-50 bucks a pop]… All from the Victoria’s Secret Miracle Bra line of course!

If you wouldn’t mind helping me out, IM me your e-mail and i’ll send you my wishlist.
[for some reason the wishlist link doesn’t work from browser]

or, you can…
DONATE TO KIM’S BRA FUND:

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To show you the impact that a good bra can have on my a-sized chest take a look at this picture I just received:

That’s a fucking good bra!
featured: jonas and wu

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Tuesday April 11, 2006 at 12:09 pm

April 11, 2006 at 7:09 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

My ideal partner’s name starts with B and rhymes with ‘RENT’.

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Tuesday April 11, 2006 at 11:39 am

April 11, 2006 at 6:39 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Your ideal partner…
What makes one?

I was talking to a friend about what we were looking for in our ideal partners and this post came up. I’m not going to tag anyone, but I thought it might be fun to fill out.

Ground Rules: The 1st player of this “game” starts
with the topic “What attracts you the most about the opposite sex” list
7 things! And people who get tagged need to write a xanga entry about
the TOPIC as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to
choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their xanga IDs. Don’t
forget to leave a comment that says “You are tagged” in their xanga and
tell them to read yours.

-because it was asked: I didn’t write these rules, i stole them from Brentacool.

Wit: It’s never worked out between me and any guy who didn’t at least match me in wit. =] Not to say I’m witty, but if you can’t match me, then it’s kind of sad… Or at the very least, someone who can make me laugh.
Loyalty: Nothing attracts me more than someone who is completely loyal to their friends.
Video games: Don’t have to be good at them, just play ‘em with me. But guys who are good at video games are sexy too.
Intelligence: This may seem the same as wit to some of you, but it’s not. I like someone smarter than me… Or at least someone who can teach me new things.
Anime: Gotta like it, it’s been in my life for 10+ years.
Food: It’s one of the most important events of my daily life, and I need someone I can enjoy it with. I’m completely serious about this one.

This last one I didn’t even realize was important to me until recently:

Reading: He needs to read. Not only because I write, but because I read — almost as much as I watch Anime… That, and well-read guys are sexy.

It might be hard for you guys as my readers to believe me [because it’s me saying this!], but physical attraction doesn’t do as much for me as you might think. Both of my long-term relationships have been with guys I didn’t initally find attractive, but somehow that completely changes when I start getting to know their personality.

I guess the more attracted I am to someone on the intellectual level, the more I become attracted to them on the physical level.

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Thursday April 6, 2006 at 11:04 am

April 6, 2006 at 6:04 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

I want to be unapologetically happy…
But why do I feel so guilty?

Dear friend,

This
past month my friends have supported me, rallied with me, laughed with
me [more than I’ve laughed for ages]… And though I can’t escape the
awkward moments when the fact comes up that yes, the asshole that is no longer in my life is still one of their good friends…

I’ve
been happy. I’ve discovered who my real friends are, who I can count
on, who I can turn to when I need to cry — and even more important,
when I need to laugh and relax.

Why is it, then, that
occasionally I’m stabbed with a tremendous pang of guilt –right in the
middle of my chest? It occurs to me in these moments that I should
still be getting over him, that I should still be sad when I think
about him, that I should still only want to be with him.

However,
what I feel should be couldn’t be further from my actual reality. In
reality, the more I look at our relationship each day, the more I’ve
realized that I wasn’t being treated the way I really would have wanted
to be treated in a relationship — not in terms of cheating or anything
horrible like that, but other, smaller, things. [Some of them not so
small.]

I just took it because somehow I felt I deserved it for being who I am. Being the way I am.

I
haven’t stopped loving who I thought he was, and I haven’t stopped
hating who he turned out to be… But without him I’m learning that I
can be even happier in some ways than before while I was with him.

Still, why do I feel so guilty about finding happiness?

my pillars

being one of the guys

and my favorite people
*thanks for supporting me from afar*

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how
can it be/that he to me is such a mystery/when the truth be seen/me and
he were we/for so long in my history/why could i not see/all this
before i lost/my mind/what does it cost/to find/the next step i need to
take/to make/the world shake and turn/to my tune/i burn/to find
me/soon/er than later/so i can be free to live and be/…me

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Wednesday April 5, 2006 at 11:00 am

April 5, 2006 at 6:00 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Wanna be my FTF?
Then join my freakin’ fanclub.

…
someone asked so here it is:
FTF = Friends that F***

Girls have periods and pregnancy… What do guys have?

Stolen from Brent.

For
those of you this concerns: Thursday Night Dinners are now Wednesday
Night Dinners. I’ll see you tonight at 8. The theme is “Breakfast”.
Bring breakfast foods.

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Saturday April 1, 2006 at 12:09 pm

April 1, 2006 at 8:09 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Booty Call Auditions
Apply now!

Shi is officially accepting applications for one-night stands. Please provide the following information:

• Looks [scale of 1-10]
• Size [scale of 1-10] (in inches, please)
• List of your best moves. Illustrations are optional.
• Your favorite position.

I will be reviewing the applicants, and winners will be announced tomorrow at 2pm. Good luck to everyone.

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Friday March 24, 2006 at 10:22 am

March 24, 2006 at 6:22 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Rebounds…
Are they worth it?

Since the breakup, though I have all my friends around me, there are still times when I feel a bit lonely in that I want to have someone next to me kind of way. In a way it’s all the sharper because all my friends are his friends too, and in the past year I hardly remember times being with them without him being there.

So the loneliness, coupled with the fact that my self-esteem and self-value has been shot to hell has made me begin to contemplate having some kind of rebound relationship.

Not even anything fancy, but just something to reaffirm to myself that I can be desirable to someone in some way.

… the only thing is, is it worth it? Am I emotionally prepared to have a rebound? If I do take a rebound should I do it with someone I actually like or someone who’s somewhat a stranger?

Even if I’m emotionally ready for a rebound in the near future, would it be worth the possibility of hurting another person because of my selfishness?

Are rebounds worth the possible repercussions?

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Thursday March 23, 2006 at 10:38 am

March 23, 2006 at 6:38 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Does writing poetry make me sound emo?
I like it regardless.

I was looking through my old poetry blog and realized that I haven’t written poetry in a really long time… Reading the words made me realize how much I miss playing with words and meanings and sounds… and inspired me to write this this morning:

because i can’t find myself anymore.

I hope you enjoyed this piece of my mind.

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Wednesday March 22, 2006 at 10:17 am

March 22, 2006 at 6:17 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Sexual Frustration:
Yay or nay?

Would you rather be a little frustrated or too satisfied?

I say yay to the sexual frustration. I actually think it’s kind of nice to have sexual tension. I heard an explaination once for ‘cha-no-yu’ (japanese tea ceremony) that fits into this situation perfectly:

But maybe it’s because I’m a girl, and sexual tension is like foreplay for me.

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Monday March 20, 2006 at 02:37 pm

March 20, 2006 at 10:37 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

In case you’ve been wondering..
This is what i’ve been up to since my birthday:

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My friend Steve went down on me while Crystal looked on and made lewd comments.

That was a pretty satisfying quest.

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Brent has been teaching me the beauty of Guitar Hero

After this, I told him we should start playing strip guitar hero at my house on Thursdays.

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And I found out that I have a long lost twin.

The tall scary woman is Crystal.

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Can I BE more nerdy?

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