tears come so easily to my eyes these days. sometimes, i’m not even very very sad, and suddenly something will make my eyes well up involuntarily. i feel like a weaker person for it, i feel like i ought to be smiling, laughing it off. maybe i should be, too.

in this ill-stricken state, painful thoughts invade my mind like the bacteria that are invading my body. i don’t even have the strength to push them away, yet somehow i have strength enough to dwell on the things that truly bother me. that’s probably why i like surrounding myself with people. — when you’re around a lot of people, you can’t really think about anything too deeply.

incidentally, it’s time to eat, and i don’t feel a bit hungry.