Friday May 5, 2006 at 12:32 pm

May 5, 2006 at 7:32 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

A taste of my music
M-flo = baddest baddies ever

3 of the best lines ever written:
boom clap boom boom boom
clap
dj, play that music louder,
onegai
don’t know why this love gotta be
muzukashii

I love their music because they blend English so perfectly with Japanese — and they don’t hide the fact that they can speak English perfectly.

*Note* M-flo is actually just the DJ [taku] and the rapper [verbal].. in this particular song they’re collaborating with Melody and Ryohei for the singing parts. —

M-flo’s pretty famous for collaborating with famous artists like Utada Hikaru and BoA. =] They used to have a singer [LISA] but she went solo after 5 albums or so.

What type of lyrics turn you on?

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Friday May 5, 2006 at 08:03 am

May 5, 2006 at 3:03 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

i love fobs.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=5587453346645465484

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Thursday May 4, 2006 at 12:45 pm

May 4, 2006 at 7:45 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

I know a brighter day is coming, but it’s not coming soon… and that’s what makes me sad.

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Saturday April 29, 2006 at 02:54 pm

April 29, 2006 at 9:54 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

My bad! I meant to say “Ethnographic” study. I don’t know why I wrote “etymology”. Sigh. Been watching too much of that freakin’ spelling bee stuff.

Speaking of which, have any of you seen that spelling bee documentary?

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Friday April 28, 2006 at 04:09 pm

April 28, 2006 at 11:09 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

I’m doing an etymology study
On Xanga

Survey Questions

Please state your Xanga user name

What is your…

Age
Race
Gender
Education level
Years on internet

· How often do you update?
· Do you comment, if so, how often?
· Do you receive comments? How many per day? How many per entry?
· Do you comment on stranger’s xanga? Do strangers comment on yours?
· Are you subscribed to people? How many subscribe to you?
· Do you read other peoples blogs daily? How many?
· How did you find your readers? How many are real friends? How many have
you met in real life?
· Do you belong to any groups?

Also, if you’d like to get interviewed and be a part of our study, tell me so by commenting here.

p.s. can you tell which posts are mine? =X

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Monday April 24, 2006 at 03:46 pm

April 24, 2006 at 10:46 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Ever seen 2 paper bag puppets go at it?

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Friday April 21, 2006 at 11:35 am

April 21, 2006 at 6:35 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

drugs.

i never realized i was addicted to k…

until the very moment i realized i’m not addicted anymore.

a bit scary [my past], and somewhat gratifying at the same time.

to know that i can have a future without it.

with love,

kim.

as an explanation, because i guess i should give one… to start, i’d like to say: i’ve been mostly clean for quite some time now. oh yeah, that and i’ve never done meth, crack, coke or heroin. just ketamine.

there’s this book i have called ‘crank’, it’s a book written with prose in poetic form… really awesome.

the last time i read it, there was a part describing the feeling of snorting, and i swear, every time i read that part, i was on fire — the urge, a surge of need.

today, i re-read the book, got to that part and felt nothing. not even the tiniest sense of longing.

and i realized…

that’s not what i want anymore, and that’s not who i am anymore. and you know what? i’m fine with that. there’s better things in life than being numb all the time.

the longing inside that i have for something to dull my senses isn’t completely gone… i will probably still drink myself into a stupor one of these days… but i’m not addicted to k anymore.

which is a surprising confession from someone who was never addicted in the first place.

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Thursday April 20, 2006 at 06:17 pm

April 21, 2006 at 1:17 am · Filed under Rigamarole

This feeling. What is this feeling? Some of my best writing has come forth from this feeling. Is it listlessness? Sadness?

I just know I’m tired.

thanks to the most recent donors.

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Thursday April 20, 2006 at 12:31 pm

April 20, 2006 at 7:31 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

for the last month, stress has been building up quite a bit. stress with breaking up. stress with my ex [from 2 years ago]. stress with my dad calling me for the first time in 13 years. stress with my mom calling me for the first time in 1.5 years. stress with my brother. stress with school. stress with work. stress with seeing my mom for the first time in a year and ahalf. stress with my own expectations. stress of worry for my friend. stress of not being able to express my emotions the way i want to. stress on top of stress on top of stress.

i want to shut down. i need to shut down. i can’t shut down. i need to keep going.

i’m a ball of emotions, yet i feel numb.

i’ve only been 23 for a month.

is it going to be like this the whole year?

i don’t think i can handle anymore.

and yet i’m becoming numb.

at least i have my pillars. i love you guys.
thank you for always being here for me.
[steve doesn’t have a webpage, does he?]

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Wednesday April 19, 2006 at 11:03 am

April 19, 2006 at 6:03 pm · Filed under Rigamarole

Let’s kick cancer in
the nuts!
Current donation total: $395

There
were those of you who wanted to know more about my friend’s condition,
so with their permission, I’m posting the letter that I received the
other day.

Today, I thought it
would be appropriate to put a face and story to the friend that I keep
talking about so dearly.

I met him about three or
four years ago at a community service project, in fact, one of the best
ones that I’ve ever been to [anyone remember the two day saddleback
marathon?].

.. There are so many things I want to
say, and yet none of the words that come from my fingertips seem to
correctly express the vibrant, fun, and amazing person he is… So
today I’m going to have to settle with
pictures.

Fun,
silly, happy, and always smiling. I’m proud to have you as my friend.

For those of you who believe praying works — I’d appreciate it if you’d do it for him =] Thanks.

If you haven’t already donated, you can also donate at the
link above or below at the same link as
before:

If you
donate through paypal, I can recognize you through my
site.

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