April 18, 2006 at 6:14 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
F*** cancer!
..better yet, PWN cancer!
Of all the other feelings that I
have right now, the ones that stand out the most to me are anger and
helplessness.
Anger that one of the most positive,
successful, kind people I know has to go through this when there are
people out there who deserve it so much more. Not that anyone
deserves cancer, but if there was a ranking involved, he would be more
along the lines of Mother Theresa in my
book.
Helplessness.
That’s even
worse. At least I can do something about the
anger. I want to do something, anything to
help. There’s nothing I can do. I can’t even pray
because I don’t believe in anything to pray to.
Just
hope.
And be angry.
Help me pwn
cancer from behind:Donate, or post this link on your
blog.
http://www.acsevents.org/relay/ca/ucirvine/myy
Relay for
Life
You don’t need paypal to donate to the site
above. Just a credit
card.
If you haven’t already donated, you can also donate at the
link above or below at the same link as
before:
If you
donate through paypal, I can recognize you through my
site.
I wanted to post more about him,
but I’m waiting to hear word back that it would be ok for me to do so
[since my site is so public]…. So if the posts seem a bit selfish,
that’s why. That, and I”m selfish.
Thank Yous
Thank
you to everyone who posted the link [The response was much greater than
I ever hoped, so I have to take time and go through the last post when
I have time]… And thank you to the following people who donated
money:
Jackson Tseng
Kenneth
Fulkerson
Ameer Navidi
ken hashimawari
Jimmy NguyenSteven Tsang
Lawrence
Ha
Erin Gee
Maria
Yesayan
April 17, 2006 at 6:21 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
My friend has cancer.
[as a favor, can you guys comment and/or give a lot of e-props to this entry, so that it can get as much publicity as possible? thank you. this is really all i can do for him.]
By the way… why am i always the last to find out?
My friend. We haven’t talked for a while, but every memory I have with him is filled with laughter, smiles, and good humor.
Receiving this news made me realize how shallow and stupid it was for me to raise money for new bras when the money could be going to a much better place… So, sorry to those of you who sent in money for the bra fund, but all of it will be getting donated to this instead:
Relay for Life
If you haven’t already donated, you can also donate at the link above or below at the same link as before:
If you donate through paypal, I can recognize you through my site.
Please help me raise as much money as I know I can and kick cancer’s ass, will ya?
Current money total from fund: $157
thank yous to:
Jackson Tseng
Kenneth Fulkerson
Ameer Navidi
If you can’t donate, all I ask is to PLEASE link this donation link
from your site and ask anyone you might know to donate to the Relay for Life under his name. It would mean the world to me.
April 13, 2006 at 6:06 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Did I mention I’m braless?
Going commando is kind of fun.
There’s a certain freedom to it.
Not as if my tits bounce very far or anything, but, it definitely is less constrictive.
Oh, and I did panty inventory… Indeed, some of my panties are also missing.
On the bra fund:
Wow!
I can’t believe the response! You guys are the greatest ever! So far
I’ve already received $37.00 in donations. Only $11.00 more dollars to
go until I can buy this (in brown).
If I reach $48.00 by the end of today, I promise to post a picture of me wearing my new goods…
If that’s any incentive at all… All you get is to see a-cups.
Huge thank yous go to:
I
know who some of you are, but there are some unfamiliar names there,
[probably because I just don’t recognize your last names…] but tell
me who you are so I can link you up!
What bra do I use?
For
all you girls that have been asking: my bra of choice is Victoria’s
Secret, Miracle Bra collection. It’s also called “add-a-cup” now. The
best tops are always the bathing suit tops, because it keeps up the
illusion even when you’re wearing close to nothing!
Oh
yeah, and the bras in that collection are on sale right now for
2/$44at VictoriasSecret.com. That’s the cheapest I’ve EVER seen them,
so hurry and buy now!
Just for you:
Check
out how powerful a good bra can be on an A-cup… This is why I spend
up to $50 on a bra! It’s cheaper than a boobjob and less painful!
Normal/No Bra [sorry it’s a really old picture.. this was pre-special bra]



Ultimate Bra-ness


By the way, the red bra shown here… GONE! FUCKING GONE!
DONATE TO KIM’S BRA FUND:
April 12, 2006 at 7:38 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
My bras were stolen!
WTF mate?!
DEAR FUCKING ASSHOLE IN THE PUBLIC LAUNDRY ROOM,
To my great surprise as I sorted through my laundry after washing it, I
realized I HAD NO BRAS LEFT [I’m also missing 2 dresses, but that’s
inconsequential compared to the bras].
Dude! I honestly spend less than 10 dollars on every article of clothing I own — EXCEPT for bras. Did you HAVE to take the bras you fucking asshole?
I’m really very angry. I’m a fucking a-cup and I need serious push-up
and help to make it look like I have some titties.
I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN WEARING MY A-CUP BRAS! YOU FUCKING OWE ME ABOUT $200!
With love,
Kim.
Help Me!
Not only were 4-5 of my bras stolen, but also my miracle bra collection swimsuit top which costs like $50 bucks… making it around 200-250 dollars in bras total. [My bras range from 25-50 bucks a pop]… All from the Victoria’s Secret Miracle Bra line of course!
I HAVE NO BRAS! Please buy some for me! I can’t afford to re-make my collection!
If you wouldn’t mind helping me out, IM me your e-mail and i’ll send you my wishlist.
[for some reason the wishlist link doesn’t work from browser]
or, you can…
DONATE TO KIM’S BRA FUND:
To show you the impact that a good bra can have on my a-sized chest take a look at this picture I just received:




That’s a fucking good bra!
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April 11, 2006 at 7:09 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
My ideal partner’s name starts with B and rhymes with ‘RENT’.
April 11, 2006 at 6:39 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Your ideal partner…
What makes one?
I was talking to a friend about what we were looking for in our ideal partners and this post came up. I’m not going to tag anyone, but I thought it might be fun to fill out. 
Ground Rules: The 1st player of this “game” starts
with the topic “What attracts you the most about the opposite sex” list
7 things! And people who get tagged need to write a xanga entry about
the TOPIC as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to
choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their xanga IDs. Don’t
forget to leave a comment that says “You are tagged” in their xanga and
tell them to read yours.
-because it was asked: I didn’t write these rules, i stole them from Brentacool.
My List
Wit: It’s never worked out between me and any guy who didn’t at least match me in wit. =] Not to say I’m witty, but if you can’t match me, then it’s kind of sad… Or at the very least, someone who can make me laugh.
Loyalty: Nothing attracts me more than someone who is completely loyal to their friends.
Video games: Don’t have to be good at them, just play ‘em with me. But guys who are good at video games are sexy too.
Intelligence: This may seem the same as wit to some of you, but it’s not. I like someone smarter than me… Or at least someone who can teach me new things.
Anime: Gotta like it, it’s been in my life for 10+ years.

Food: It’s one of the most important events of my daily life, and I need someone I can enjoy it with. I’m completely serious about this one.
This last one I didn’t even realize was important to me until recently:
Reading: He needs to read. Not only because I write, but because I read — almost as much as I watch Anime… That, and well-read guys are sexy. 
Physical Attractiveness
It might be hard for you guys as my readers to believe me [because it’s me saying this!], but physical attraction doesn’t do as much for me as you might think. Both of my long-term relationships have been with guys I didn’t initally find attractive, but somehow that completely changes when I start getting to know their personality.
I guess the more attracted I am to someone on the intellectual level, the more I become attracted to them on the physical level.
What attracts you to the opposite sex?
April 6, 2006 at 6:04 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
I want to be unapologetically happy…
But why do I feel so guilty?
Dear friend,
This
past month my friends have supported me, rallied with me, laughed with
me [more than I’ve laughed for ages]… And though I can’t escape the
awkward moments when the fact comes up that yes, the asshole that is no longer in my life is still one of their good friends…
I’ve
been happy. I’ve discovered who my real friends are, who I can count
on, who I can turn to when I need to cry — and even more important,
when I need to laugh and relax.
Why is it, then, that
occasionally I’m stabbed with a tremendous pang of guilt –right in the
middle of my chest? It occurs to me in these moments that I should
still be getting over him, that I should still be sad when I think
about him, that I should still only want to be with him.
However,
what I feel should be couldn’t be further from my actual reality. In
reality, the more I look at our relationship each day, the more I’ve
realized that I wasn’t being treated the way I really would have wanted
to be treated in a relationship — not in terms of cheating or anything
horrible like that, but other, smaller, things. [Some of them not so
small.]
I just took it because somehow I felt I deserved it for being who I am. Being the way I am.
I
haven’t stopped loving who I thought he was, and I haven’t stopped
hating who he turned out to be… But without him I’m learning that I
can be even happier in some ways than before while I was with him.
Still, why do I feel so guilty about finding happiness?
With love,
Kim.
Happiness is, and has been:
my pillars

being one of the guys

and my favorite people
*thanks for supporting me from afar*
how
can it be/that he to me is such a mystery/when the truth be seen/me and
he were we/for so long in my history/why could i not see/all this
before i lost/my mind/what does it cost/to find/the next step i need to
take/to make/the world shake and turn/to my tune/i burn/to find
me/soon/er than later/so i can be free to live and be/…me
April 5, 2006 at 6:00 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Wanna be my FTF?
Then join my freakin’ fanclub.
…And officially become my FTF.
… 
someone asked so here it is:
FTF = Friends that F***
Question:
Girls have periods and pregnancy… What do guys have?
I kick ass at Scrabble:
Stolen from Brent.
Thursday Night Dinners:
For
those of you this concerns: Thursday Night Dinners are now Wednesday
Night Dinners. I’ll see you tonight at 8. The theme is “Breakfast”.
Bring breakfast foods.
April 1, 2006 at 8:09 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Booty Call Auditions
Apply now!
Shi is officially accepting applications for one-night stands. Please provide the following information:
- Looks [scale of 1-10]
- Size [scale of 1-10] (in inches, please)
- List of your best moves. Illustrations are optional.
- Your favorite position.
I will be reviewing the applicants, and winners will be announced tomorrow at 2pm. Good luck to everyone.
March 24, 2006 at 6:22 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Rebounds…
Are they worth it?
Since the breakup, though I have all my friends around me, there are still times when I feel a bit lonely in that I want to have someone next to me kind of way. In a way it’s all the sharper because all my friends are his friends too, and in the past year I hardly remember times being with them without him being there.
So the loneliness, coupled with the fact that my self-esteem and self-value has been shot to hell has made me begin to contemplate having some kind of rebound relationship.
Not even anything fancy, but just something to reaffirm to myself that I can be desirable to someone in some way.
Questioning…
… the only thing is, is it worth it? Am I emotionally prepared to have a rebound? If I do take a rebound should I do it with someone I actually like or someone who’s somewhat a stranger?
Even if I’m emotionally ready for a rebound in the near future, would it be worth the possibility of hurting another person because of my selfishness?
Are rebounds worth the possible repercussions?
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