July 20, 2005 at 3:50 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Ethical Standards: Part One
The hypocrisy of parents:
“Do as I say, not as I do — unless it benefits me.”
Society tells us that good parents will teach their
kids to be honest and good people. So, that’s what parents teach
to their kids — at least when it benefits them. For
example, a kid who steals from the proverbial cookie jar will get
punished for stealing, and even more if he lies about it.
Sounds pretty good, doesn’t it? Ethical, idealistic, and promising.
How come then, is it the parent that is teaching the same child to lie, steal, and cheat?
—-
Alright, I shouldn’t generalize… But honestly, who here has never
lied, cheated or stolen anything in their life? I’m willing to
bet among those that arent lying that most that read this can think of
one instance where they’ve done one of these things.
I know I have.
Now, I know there are other factors that teach people to do
these unethical things — such as, say, the media, or your peers.
However, in my case, the people from whom I learned to actually justify such
actions were definitely my parents.
Afterall, my parents aren’t thieves, they weren’t bad people (and neither am I, I don’t think)… But
even they are human. As a child I caught them in white lies, I saw them grab
grapes and candies in the grocery store and munch on them when no one
was looking.
It made me think, hey, why can’t I do that? And so I
did. And I do. Even though I know it’s wrong, in my mind
it’s justified because I saw my parents doing it as a child.
As I grew up, I saw more. I caught more mistakes, lapses in judgement. My parents, my teachers, people who
were supposed to be my role models, the things I thought were wrong,
I understood them more. And though I thought they were
wrong, I began to justify them more.
When my parents got divorced and my mom began to drink heavily…
I thought… My mom, she drinks because my dad is bad, and he cheated on her. It’s okay, because drinking eases her pain. Even if
she drinks the entire bottle of cognac a day.
So when I began college, and symptoms of bi-polar disorder started in me..
I thought… There is so much pain…
It’s not that bad to drown it and suppress it with alcohol and
drugs. That’s what one is supposed to do.
And so I did. Even though the logical part of me knew it was
wrong, I was still able to justify it without feeling much guilt
because I had seen my mom doing it. Even though, if my mom ever
knew, I knew she would kill me for doing such ‘bad’ things.
But what would she be able to say, really, if I replied “I do this because I learned it from you” ?
——–
I guess the cliche moral of the story is that actions do speak louder
than words, and that kids are a lot more observant and susceptable to
learning your weaknesses than you think.
But… The real message I want to get out, the real question I want to ask is this:
Who taught you your ethical standards?… and who taught you to break them?
July 20, 2005 at 2:49 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Ethical Standards: Part One
The hipocrisy of parents:
“Do as I say, not as I do — unless it benefits me.”
Society tells us that good parents will teach their
kids to be honest and good people. So, that’s what parents teach
to their kids — at least when it benefits them. For
example, a kid who steals from the proverbial cookie jar will get
punished for stealing, and even more if he lies about it.
Sounds pretty good, doesn’t it? Ethical, idealistic, and promising.
How come then, is it the parent that is teaching the same child to lie, steal, and cheat?
—-
Alright, I shouldn’t generalize… But honestly, who here has never
lied, cheated or stolen anything in their life? I’m willing to
bet among those that arent lying that most that read this can think of
one instance where they’ve done one of these things.
I know I have.
Now, I know there are other factors that teach people to do
these unethical things — such as, say, the media, or your peers.
However, in my case, the people from whom I learned to actually justify such
actions were definitely my parents.
Afterall, my parents aren’t thieves, they weren’t bad people (and neither am I, I don’t think)… But
even they are human. As a child I caught them in white lies, I saw them grab
grapes and candies in the grocery store and munch on them when no one
was looking.
It made me think, hey, why can’t I do that? And so I
did. And I do. Even though I know it’s wrong, in my mind
it’s justified because I saw my parents doing it as a child.
As I grew up, I saw more. I caught more mistakes, lapses in judgement. My parents, my teachers, people who
were supposed to be my role models, the things I thought were wrong,
I understood them more. And though I thought they were
wrong, I began to justify them more.
When my parents got divorced and my mom began to drink heavily…
I thought… My mom, she drinks because my dad is bad, and he cheated on her. It’s okay, because drinking eases her pain. Even if
she drinks the entire bottle of cognac a day.
So when I began college, and symptoms of bi-polar disorder started in me..
I thought… There is so much pain…
It’s not that bad to drown it and suppress it with alcohol and
drugs. That’s what one is supposed to do.
And so I did. Even though the logical part of me knew it was
wrong, I was still able to justify it without feeling much guilt
because I had seen my mom doing it. Even though, if my mom ever
knew, I knew she would kill me for doing such ‘bad’ things.
But what would she be able to say, really, if I replied “I do this because I learned it from you” ?
——–
I guess the cliche moral of the story is that actions do speak louder
than words, and that kids are a lot more observant and susceptable to
learning your weaknesses than you think.
But… The real message I want to get out, the real question I want to ask is this:
Who taught you the rules of ethics?… and who taught you to break them?
July 14, 2005 at 4:13 am · Filed under Rigamarole
Now that I’m a heffer…
I’M SELLING ALL MY SKINNY CLOTHES
to make myself feel better
Posting can be seen at : http://orangecounty.craigslist.org/clo/84360982.html
Dozens of shirts and pants and misc. items of clothing. I’ve gotten
really fat in the last few months and had to revamp my whole wardrobe.
Items being sold include pieces famous from my website (madpimp.com)
such as:
*NOTE all these pictures taken around 2001 whiile I was still living in the dorms. I’ve already graduated.
This shirt, circa 2001
This shirt, circa 2001
And this shirt, worn as recently as 2001
And this shirt that has a hole in it (A famous hole that has been seen everywhere on the internet, by the way.)
That’s right, folks. Dozens and dozens of articles of clothing now on sale because I’ve become a complete heffer!
So here’s the deal:
$5.00 per jacket
$3.00 per other items of clothing
$10.00 for 4 items of clothing (making them $2.50 each)
$20.00 for 10 items of clothing (making them $2.00 each)
And $75.00 for the entire stack of clothing
(I have no idea how many pieces there are.. it might be even less, if
there are less than 40-45 pieces.) PLUS! My entire collection of
japanese phonebook comic books [ribon.. about 7 issues], and about 15
free posters of hot chicks and/or anime will be thrown in there for
free.
Seriously a great deal. 
*Note, the posters and the comic books are a promotional offer and may
expire at any time. However, if you do decide to buy everything, I’ll
include a free gift of some sort.
nonSerious offers only. Just playin. I’m really selling them, but do you think this ad will get people to want to buy it?
July 12, 2005 at 8:09 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
//EDIT! In other news, this link is majorly great.
http://uqmgp.hp.infoseek.co.jp/
=====
Hi, my name is Kim, and I’m getting fat.
No really. I’m getting really, really, really fat.
I’m 5’00 and 120 lbs. My BMI is 23.4.
I’ve gained 10 lbs in the last 6 months.
I’ve gained 32 lbs in the last 4 years.
I also have high cholesterol.
Don’t give me that pithy crap about how I used to be overly skinny
and that now I’m a more ‘normal’ weight. All I know is,
regardless of what the charts say, that if I continue the way I
eat and live, by the end of this year, I’ll be technically overweight,
and a year from now I will weigh almost twice as much as I did when I
first started college.– which is really disgusting to me.
This morning I looked in the mirror at myself and noticed I have a
double chin — which is something I never thought I would have in my
entire life. Where did it come from? How long has it been
there? I’m not sure…
But I know how I got here. I got here by eating 3 mcdonalds
sandwiches in a meal at once. I got here thinking that 15 chicken
nuggets is a snack. I got here cooking for myself and thinking
“butter makes everything taste better!”
So, this I propose to myself: Fruits for breakfast instead of
hashbrowns. One serving of creamer instead of two in my
coffee. Fruits and vegetables for snacks instead of
chee-tos. Sushi or salads [low dressing] for lunch… and only
one serving size for dinner [instead of three].
I know some guys who say they like girls who can eat — but I
know no one that says they like girls who are clinically overweight or
obese.
——
Oh yeah, and I’ll stop driving to places that are within walking distance… Most of the time.
Underweight me:
~90 lbs [right before starting college]
Desired Weight
~105
Current Weight:
~120
July 12, 2005 at 3:50 am · Filed under Rigamarole
I’ve been looking through blogs of old acquaintences lately — just to see what they’re up to… and to see if they’ve changed as much as I have. Some have, some haven’t…. but there was something throughout that I noticed — something that had nothing to do with the actual going-ons of their lives.
I’ve noticed that people who like to write as their pasttimes and people who are good at writing write much (and generally people who enjoy reading a lot) and rarely reveal very much about themselves through their writing. You may catch glimpses of their personalities, and glimmers of their lives, but for the most part, they hide behind their prose.
On the other hand, those who are just as intelligent but aren’t necessarily interested in writing, write as themselves. Their personality shines through and though the angsts may not be as angsty as the good writer, and their happiness may not be as clear as the good writer, you get more a sense of who THEY are, how THEY speak, what THEY want you to hear than the so-called ‘good’ writers.
——-
Why is this? Is this because good writers are also story tellers, liars? Is it because good writers learn instinctively to not write things that will haunt them later? Or is it because those who are not interested in writing know nothing more than writing as themselves…?
If so, why aren’t the good writers writing as themselves? Are they incapable of doing so because of the switch between writing and speech? Or is it that they choose to do so because they want to portray themselves in writing as someone other than themselves?
It makes me wonder….
June 9, 2005 at 7:30 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Thought: Who would you change your sexual preference for?
While reading up about my favorite artist, (revealed later in the post) this thought occured to me: If you’re gay, who would turn you straight? If you’re straight, who would turn you gay?
I have a top two list of women that I worship. One for talent and the other one for looks.
First: Angelina Jolie
Quite possibly the most sexual looking woman in the world. Seriously, I don’t care if you’re a guy or a girl, this chick (to me) seethes sex. That, and the fact that she plays a videogame vixen.. Rarrr.. how sexy is THAT?
and… My number 1 pick: Utada Hikaru
Seriously… THE MOST talented woman. Ever. Writes AND produces her own music… Had her first album [THAT SHE WROTE] out when she was 12.. Went to COLUMBIA… and is an international SUPERSTAR? Hell yeah. Definitely would go gay for her.
Check out these new pictures she just came out with in Interview Magazine. HOT!!
Album plug: Her awesome song Exodus ’04 (produced by Hikki-chan AND TIMBALAND) from her Exodus CD is coming out as a single on 06/21! It has 8 remixes of the song on it and as far as I can see it looks like it’s going to be great!
June 8, 2005 at 12:12 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
ICS = I can’t see, I can’t sleep, and I can’t shower.
if(hateICS && justStayedUpAllNight){
System.out.println(“There are days when I seriously question my reason for choosing to be an ICS (information and computer science) major. This is one of them. After spending the entire night awake, drinking coca-cola and programming while telling myself that I can eat chee-tos as soon as I finish I realized this: I really hate programming.
No really, I do… And I discovered why, too.
Programming is just about the only thing I do that I am really uncreative in. Give me an algorithm and I’ll understand its use, and I can use it in simple situations — give me a program to do where I have to think abstractly about it — fuck that shit!! On the other hand, give me a piece of fabric and some thread, and I can show you a thousand different things. Give me some words, and I’ll tell you a story. — you get the picture.
To make sure we don’t cheat, they use this one program to check for similarities between code — I’m surprised I don’t get caught for cheating because I usually just do what’s in the book…. They say that each program is as different as a fingerprint.
I guess everyone else in my class is a more creative programmer than I am.
Blah. I feel so… negative.”);
I leave you with this:
string shit(){
if(ICS && awakeAt8AM){
if(EARLY_CLASS || PROJECT || WORK || STAYED_UP_PLAYING_GAMES){
return System.out.println(“I need some fucking sleep… and I’m not going to class”);
}
}
else {
return System.out.println(“I need some fucking sleep, but I’ll consider going to class”);}
}
Caution: running this results in errors, no linebreaks, sleeping, and a lot of not going to class.
June 3, 2005 at 9:18 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
REGGAE FEST IS FUCKING COOL
I”M DrfuRZZUNGK BIATCH~!~~!!!~!~!~~!~!~!~!
May 2, 2005 at 11:45 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
//EDIT
Okay, so now I know it’s pretty much a lost cause and I’m not gonna win… But I think it would be really funny if instead of voting everyone just went over to chris’s site and comment “I HATE ROAST BEEF PU$$Y LIPS!!”
I donno why. I just think it’d be funny. I’m gonna do it right now.
//END EDIT
POOP TARD!
Howdy guys!! This is gonna make me seem like a horrible person… But I’m in this online webcam contest and I am in dire need of votes from you guys [the other team is kicking my ASS!!]
We were supposed to photoshop some pix and I did these two:
And apparently they’re too disturbing for people to like. How lame is that?
Can you guys do an awesome favor and vote for me?? 
all you need to do is
CLICK HERE
and comment the words “ALPHA Q”
I feel so bad about this shitty post!! ! ! ! ! — I promise you as soon as voting’s over i’ll delete this ish. That will be my thank you.
P.S. THE OTHER TEAM THINKS MY TEAM IS IMMATURE… I SAY:
YOU GUYS ARE POOP FACES NEENER NEENER NEENER
EAT MY POOOO
April 25, 2005 at 10:06 pm · Filed under Rigamarole
Superhero Shi:
OH NO! This is the last one!!
I can’t believe this series is already almost over. It’s a
good thing though, no one ever wants to jump the shark, right?
Anyhow, I plan to get the final comic out within the next week or so… so don’t expect anything tomorrow or anything.
Brief Rundown:
-I’m going to write a comic strip about myself as a superhero.
-I need YOU to help me by voting on the choices below
-Votes with reasons will be weighted heavier
Today’s Decision:
The Secret Identity
Nerdy Computer Science Major College Student Blogger
It’s a big stretch, but I think I can do it.
Popular high school student.
Think Kimpossible.
Journalist
Journalists always seem to know how to get into the middle of the craziest situations.
A dude! + any of the above
Wouldn’t it be crazy if I transformed from a dude into a supercool girl
superhero?! It’d be just like Sailor Moon when the Sailor
Starlights came to town. CRAZY!
Happy Voting!
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