I don’t understand why everybody else gets better in like 2 days when THEY get sick, and for me it takes a year. I’m jealous of everybody who has a strong body and the ability to do consistant all nighters without getting sick. I feel like a sack of shit right now!

I’m a little scared, too. I mean, I’ve been coughing for about three or four weeks now… What if it’s more than just a cold? I don’t know… It doesn’t seem very normal that I cough even when I’ve already taken my medication.

Blech. And what a medication it is. I have three (3!!) different types of pills and a nasal spray. I hate pills. I hate nasal spray. Every time I wake up and prepare for taking it, I feel like a cancer patient or something.

Round white pills. Oval pink pills. Oblong red pills. And a nasal spray. My mom’s thinking about making me take vitamins, too. Oh joy. More foreign objects to put into my body. That’s great! That’s wonderful! That’s just fucking dandy.

A part of me is really scared that I’ll never get better. Like the girl in Rurouni Kenshin who had consumption (Magdaria). Seriously, I know my throat, and if this keeps up any longer I’ll start coughing blood again.

Fuck. I have the fucking fuck shittiest headache in right now. I can’t stay up any longer. Damn. It’s 5:50. Time to get ready for school. Argh.

This bites. I took care of myself and dressed warmly for everything and I STILL get sick.