my brother, “So, do you have a boyfriend?”
me, “Nah. I donno, most of my friends are in their twenties or close to it”
my brother, “Haha! THat’s only one or two years older than you”
“Twenty is so old!”
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I still haven’t grasped the fact that in less than two years I’ll be officially in the twenties. It’s hard for me to grasp sometimes my friends are in their twenties. When just talking, it doesn’t feel like they’re that much older than me (and they’re not)– but when I hear anything over twenty, I think “oh, thats OLD!” Even if I hear twenty it seems old to me. Even if in four months I’ll be 19. Only one number off from 20.
When I was an eighth grader, I dated a boy that was a junior in high school. He was four years older than me at that time, and yet somehow the 13 17 difference doesn’t seem as far to me as the 18 -> 20 distance. Me? Date a twenty year old? Whoa. That would mean that I’m dating a grownup or something.
My brother says it’s because I still act like I’m twelve. That could very well be the fact.