Spent the night at the boyfriend’s house as usual. Stuffed eeyore and mikey down the crack as usual. Hogged monkey all night like he was mine like usual.

Woke up feeling refreshed. Woke up feeling calm. Woke up without bad dreams. Woke up with dry eyes. Woke up feeling happy. Highly unusual.

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Though it’s (admittedly) dangerous, sometimes thinking about things that happened in the past as a way to lose focus on the present day sadnesses makes things better. Remembering how it felt too feel loved, remembering the feeling of falling in love, remembering how it feels to be wanted… Makes the bad and negatives seem a little less in-your-face.