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Cleaning up the mess

As with most indulgences, alcohol, food, sex… when it ends, you have to clean up what was left in its wake.

My time of indulgence is over. Now that I’m well enough to be awake for a good chunk of the day without needing to sleep, I have to try to pick up the pieces I carelessly let slip out of my fingers. –That is, I have to start doing the work that I’ve been neglecting for the past week and a half.

As I started to do my thing, I felt like crap still, but oddly motivated to try to work harder. Then I got tired and had to sit down. For the 5 hours I was up and about, I felt good, though. More free than I have for a while.

I don’t want to disappoint myself anymore.

Love,
Kim